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Author: Hope Never Vanishes

  • tired. can’t decide should i just turn in

    tired. can’t decide should i just turn in

    one of those days.  can’t turn the mind OFF.  you know with so much going on in the world, it hardly is a rest at any time.

    you get into the place where you are staying and you know someone has been there, without telling you… and why?  you know because they left a light on in the hall – that you did not leave on when you left in the morning.

    nothing else is changed.  nobody left anything.  no deliveries.  creepy.

    look in the closets, look under the bed (too narrow for a person to be under there).  look in the shower.  shreeky music in the background… nobody.  look in the utility closet.  nobody.  whew.  but, why?  because they can.  freeeeKEEEEE…

    hmmm. sure will be good to get home for a few nights… yess’m.

    probably, if someone was here, i am so tired, i would just make a face and say, “what are YOU DOING HERE?”  maybe say, “leave me alone” and make this face:

    what i would do if there was someone hiding here…

    then maybe they would go away.  yes.  GO AWAY.

  • Reflections, Mirrors, Passages…

    Reflections, Mirrors, Passages…

    Every day we take for granted that which is around us, when suddenly, we can have things ripped into a different reality, or just news can make you think hard about what you take for granted.

    I look at my pictures from the past, and what I see in the mirror today, and I think, “how am I different now?”  Besides general aging, are my thoughts changing, bit by bit?  If what has happened to other people happens to me, how will I react or handle the situation?  We are always apt to have anything happen.

    Falling reminds me of this.  I fell inside the boat we were in, fishing, last week, foot slid out from under me when I went for the seat that moved out of my way when I was trying to get out of the way of a fish being caught – lots of action in a short period of time, lots of moving parts, then I went down to a painful conclusion!  And I fell, yesterday, my foot having become tangled in a cord under my chair, in a hurry, then straight down onto my other knee.  This happens fast.  Your body takes over.  Your mind is NOT in charge here.

    This time of year is a cluster of emotion for our family.  Definitely, people have been born, lived, died, and celebrated in this time frame – the harvest – then the celebration of life – holidays… every one, every year, on and on, and the trail of time weaving its life events throughout the labyrinth of occurrences…

    life stream

    It is all a bit of a journey – rivers flow, we flow, and we don’t really stop until we do…  And it can leave you feeling a bit flattened, at times.

  • How many ways can we do “wrong” and get ourselves in deep doo-doo?

    How many ways can we do “wrong” and get ourselves in deep doo-doo?

    This is serious.  Ebola.  In Texas?  Yes.  In Texas.

    Kind of playing out in a not so good way…  Watch this space.  Guy gets on plane.  Travels across the big pond.  Visits family and friends, and some little kids are included, of course.  Starts feeling punk.  Goes to ER.  “Go home and drink fluids, and call if you don’t get better…

    Still a mystery as to why no one paid attention to the fact that the guy came from one of the countries where there is an Ebola outbreak…  HELLO?

    Apparently, no one asks this guy with a not so Texas accent, is he visiting?  From where?  You would have thought the people doing the insurance biopsy would have picked up on that!  Or if they did, they did not communicate it to the doctors…  Hell no.  Even if they did, they didn’t pass it along.

    Dumbasses.  Liberia?  Hello?  Watch the news EVER?  Know were this IS?

    Leave it to our glued up contorted health care system that is still not fixed… Thanks for trying… Watch this space.

    Ted Cruz, “the genius” congressman from Texas, is (of course) demanding that they close the borders…  MRI, X-RAY, SCANS – Keep ‘Em OUT!!!  Thanks, Ted.  As always…  Great guy, Ted… NOT.

    But there is some calm logic also.  People who study this day in and day out have given some facts to date… here

    Here is the update on the Dallas situation…  The poor fellow has passed on…  Sad, sad tragedy.  Unbelievably sad in dimensions that most “westernized cultures” do not understand.  Provincial thinking does not work in a globalized society.  We’re there dude.  Too late to turn back… A discussion for another day.

    Can our fractured and flawed “system” as it is, cope with this any better than countries in Africa?  Or will our prejudices, our political system, our stubbornly complex attitudes that combine arrogance and ignorance, plus our reeeeeallly poor healthcare system and all that this has introduced into situational awareness and emergency response cause a debacle of proportions the likes of which we have not seen in our lifetimes?

    What are we doing?  Hatching a plan “B”…

    Pray.  Its all we can do to help those who don’t have a clue about anything but their own little block in their own little town.  Rant du jour.

    Watch this space…