Author: Hope Never Vanishes

  • Airport Walks…  What You Think About.

    Airport Walks…  What You Think About.

     

    Going to the airport is a routine now ahead of these trips up north. I’ve taken up this habit of walking my wait for boarding my flights lately. I do this because of my back, and because sitting just isn’t great in contiguous segments. I am required to sit on the plane. I am not required to sit while I am waiting at the airport to board. I just need to show up when required by the time on the ticket to board.


    It’s my time to put on the “phones” and go into a space, walking and watching. I swear, I could tell you more about the state of the airport and its inhabitants than anyone, except those like me who are roving people watchers… I haven’t spotted THEM yet, because if they are moving, it makes sense that they might be difficult to identify. Right?


    So, I observe. I absorb. I think about stuff. My mind loosens, and the creative juices flow. Oh my goodness, do they flow. A recorder could attest to free associations… but, that’s really my brain on exercise, stormin’ and zipping around to those thoughts that bubble up most.
    Thinking of things, in my “thingish” way, that Winnie the Pooh perfected long ago…


    People…


    People from different places and walks of life… People who look like other people in certain ways… People who look like they are on a mission, people at rest in the very quiet “D” terminal… which is a huge contrast to the very busy and congested “C” terminal… “E” is moderate, as it has lots of vertical space and lots of long hauls – the people are less compressed into small spaces…


    Distance…


    In about an hour I can cover almost three and a half miles – likely, if I race walked it, I could do more – but I don’t want to get that sweaty… Especially before a flight…


    I compare this to walking to our local park and back, plus about a half mile more…


    Art…


    There is cool art in the “D” terminal. The “E” terminal has vast spaces and “premium” restaurants and shops… The “C” terminal is trying to catch up, but there is no “art” there – just redesign of the existing – to get it out of that “90’s look”, but “C” always will be the busy domestic hub for North America – all seem to be majorly “United” controlled except for the “D” terminal that has the other airlines who fly overseas. The non-alliance airlines are banished to “A” and “B”, or God forbid, “Hobby”, across town… Umph… Silly that we even have this perspective – pushed by “corporation” power-plays… I do NOT ♥ United… I do long for the old Continental…


    “Hometown Houston”


    Used to be that this was okay – Continental, being the hometown airline, it was a hometown airport. Not so much now. Its weird. Its complicated. It is still, the large corporate merger, working itself out.
    Houston is a proud city. It does not like to be taken over by Chicago.


    Its citizens rebel in passive aggressive ways, but if you want to fly anywhere, you kind of have to forbear the resentments. United. You complain, knowing that you are rebelling against a corporate giant the size of a small city. Ugh. Bad food, reducing comforts, and the expense… “Shall we beat you whilst you give us your money for the experience?”. Right.


    But with this airline, there are the almost 40+ year employees, still there, flying and working the ground, who began work as soon as they graduated high-school and became eligible…


    The “stewardesses” (now attendants) – inflight “coordinators” – etc., names of job roles change – they were, at the beginning, likely, svelte and curvy at the same time, as it was, back in the day, the habit of hiring – before the ERA of ’72 kicked in and discriminatory practices began changing like “la unda” (the wave)… No more that. It’s okay if you are my age, in not such great shape, and of reasonable temperament – well…at least not ranting….


    Most of this is on the pages of the travel experience “opinionators” who wax on about this program vs. that one, but then this one does this and that, and if you put a spreadsheet to it, well… at the end of that evaluation, this one really is better…


    Yeah, I get it… Good and bad with a happy paper and ribbon to tie it all up, and someone is still making money… That is what it is all about, right?


    So, I digress… It was about the walk? Right? Right.


    Each time I do the walk it gets more interesting. I think, really, it is more about my perspectives driven by the walk – and it is never the same… I don’t let it be one of too much binning and categorization, although, we humans tend to do this… I now look for the outliers. I think about the comparison to walks in years back and the sporadic periods of time spent in airports… over the years… before 9-11, when people smoked and things were still spinning from the glorious age of commercialization of air travel… Barely experienced in my teens… it was so very different then…


    My first flying experience was flying from college home to spend Christmas holidays


    Getting there was not as hard as returning without a ride from the airport – a boyfriend soon to be ex was a no show… Reached out in desperation to the roommate who lived not far, and the parents who rescued me… Caveat was that I had to stay over at their house, which was a bit weird, but I was okay, and accounted for, not hitchhiking, as my parents likely feared…


    I was seventeen.


    Not yet an adult, fully qualified, as that was being debated at the time… it was Vietnam war times… If you were old enough to fight, you should be old enough to vote, and drink, and get married… but not all the states thought that this was a good idea, and this came in spurts… like all other changes, from the left, and right to the middle… California and New York leading as always, the change waves…
    Flying then was quite a different experience…as was life for us at that point…


    It was during the interesting time – of Fleetwood Mac, and Rolling Stones… The Who, and David Bowie… Moving fast into the seventies… Before CBGB… Endless opportunities if you didn’t die in the process… Keeping ahead of the waves of revolution and transition, so as not to get run over by it was the trick – avoiding those situations that could get you into big dimensions of trouble… all of us had to navigate through these times in some form or fashion, it seemed…


    But the quality and character of this has changed. Now, the dimensions of danger and violence in our world has moved to a level that for most of us, borders on out of control. Scary to those of us who live in what we think is a modern and civilized world that there are others among us who want to drag us backward and limit us to living in that hand-to-hand existence where someone or someones are in charge and stuff explodes to remind the world of this on an erratic basis just to keep this notion in the forefront of everyone’s minds…
    And then there are the zombies. Thank goodness we have our own “house zombie” for protection… Halloween is coming at the end of the month… Must find a new suit for him! The girls will no doubt want photos again this year!


    Again I digress…


    As I roam, I think also about that Tom Hanks movie where he “lives” in the airport, his life and friends become that of those who occupy it 24X7, and they know him – and join together to be on his side – he is the “permanent” denizen of the environment and the perspectives reflected are those of a resident, as his evolves…


    I can see how this could transpire, and imagine what it would be like…


    So often, the employees are congregated to socialize, discussing what they did the night before, their boyfriends, their families, and the normal stuff you chat with co-workers about…


    It probably is a tiring place to work for some. I see people resting in the quiet parts of the airport.


    I look at the art that probably 95% of passengers that travel domestically out of this airport do not even know is on exhibit. It is beautiful stuff – highly modern art in genre and some very interesting works. Introducing art into spaces where people have to wait is a nice thing in a normally unpleasant and stressful environment. Every little thing helps…

    Me, I am just trying to not sit around too much, keeping active, doing my steps, burning calories, in anticipation of the long sit that awaits me on my flight…

  • and it is still raining…but we are still in drought

    and it is still raining…but we are still in drought

    Raining today… again.

    We are still experiencing drought.  It might take years to get out of it.  But for now, it’s raining, whatever it is in that rainwater, washing clean the air, that does not take long to get dirty again…

    Imagine, back in the day, people thought that if they smoked, created smoke, or vented anything into the air, it would just go away.  Silly people.  Not much sense of atmosphere.

    Now we know.  It isn’t that easy.

    Here, we have cleaned up some… but some people, still not believing, go ahead and try to get away with it.  You can see them or evidence of them…

    Not so in other places.  Take China, for instance.  You can’t breathe there.  Down south of here, same thing.  You go for a visit and you see what daily, people experience in their air, breathing in all sorts of hydrocarbons, other junk… And life goes on.

    Stinky air, stinky water, and people just don’t get it.  Throw away a piece of trash – mother nature has to eat that stuff…eventually.

    Much more to it than that, I suppose.  Are we part of something larger that really is a process and evolution of a generation of animals… likely.  It is our dimension, our reality, our universe…

    Go figure, then come back and tell me the answer to this.

  • You know when they talk about those experiences that tilt your axis…slightly.

    You know when they talk about those experiences that tilt your axis…slightly.

    So, I haven’t posted here in awhile.  I have been busy.

    Really, since July began, I have been very busy.  You see, I decided to venture into a new experience.  Working in a different country – not just for a couple of weeks, but for some months… and living in a different environment – becoming an urban dweller – in an apartment – no car – and it is nice weather, and then it snows, and then it gets nice – and there is a river nearby – really nearby – and a park – and trails – and a very diverse cultural environment – and work – and being away from home (and getting really homesick) – and getting a physical ailment and having to deal with it, when you physically depend on your body to help you out (and it decides to rebel) – and then you go – “shit, this is not funny.”  Yeah.  It’s like that.  And then things begin to straighten out.  After much acupuncture and stuff.  Good grief.  I think, “life was simple once.”  but that is a lie.  It never was.  Ever.  Not my life, at least.

    Gloves that have stars that glow in the dark

    Bringing back to the more positive, I am listening to music I haven’t really listened to in years.  I am avoiding having the evil television on all the time.  One can only take seeing “Bar Rescue” just so many times in a row.

    Enough already.

    So, sitting here in the country of my forefathers, but on the other side of that country, I am experiencing something different from what I had been doing…

    Working and living away from home, in a different country.  I get homesick.  It presents a new challenge to live life in a different environment.  It isn’t bad, doing this, especially at age 60 (almost 61).  It is a new decade for me.  I realize that I don’t likely have that much time left on this planet, since it seems to go by so fast.  It also keeps my mind challenged… I have to work with myself not to slip into some sort of complacency.

    So, here I sit, in another country, working – not necessarily always stellar, but I do have some interesting work…

    But being away from my loved ones.  That fact makes me blue.

    I want to NOT be doing things that are not valuable experiences –  you realize that you fritter away a lot of your life doing really meaningless things – and that is not mindful living.

    You should make each nano-second a mindful one, but we are not trained to do this growing up.  We are trained to focus on meaningless stuff – as if it is a good thing, to “do meaningless (to us) stuff” to show some sort of discipline.  Horse-feathers.

    I think that we will prove this to be wrong, one day.  People just say that their dedication to academics for the point of finishing something is meaningful.  Okay, that’s fine, for some people, but not for me.  I think “Jeez, if this isn’t meaningful or valuable – what’s the point?”

    Okay, so it appears knee jerk or quirky – but, seriously, I think about it a lot before I form an opinion.  I get to a point, no, really, I get to a feeling.  I know when enough is enough.  It “feels” wrong.

    So, if you do get to age 60, and life is really speeding up, and you realize that you might have 20 good years left (even less if you don’t take care of yourself) – you had better be spending it meaningfully.  Or else, you will maybe regret it later…  As you lay dying, you go “oh shit, I just frittered life away… and then you go – unh.”  Bzzzzz, you’re done.  End of story.

    I don’t want to be like that.  Seriously.  I think that it requires some considering.  I just watch people.  I look at what they are doing to themselves sometimes and they are miserable.  I say, “what is going on here?”  Why are you (we) doing this stuff?  Is it good?  Is it meaningful?  Do you care?  You should care.  You should care a lot.

    I guess, when I listen to this old music, it puts me in a reflective mood and I really think about the past, present, and future.

    And I miss my dog.

    Hi Mom!