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  • besides the state of our extremely chaotic world, everything is fine.

    besides the state of our extremely chaotic world, everything is fine.

    It doesn’t seem that long ago that things were not this crazy. In fact, it seems that about 5 years ago, things were not this crazy. NOT THIS CRAZY. I repeat.

    We had a calm guy for a president of the US. He followed process and when he made an announcement, it was over something extremely important – not this nonsense of tweeting things every day, sometimes many times a day (or night) – taunting people or firing them – using social media.

    But there were always those who fed him into their conspiracy theory machine, certain that he was the spawn of evil – and when you think about it, there has always been a conspiracy theory machine. Always.

    There was probably some sort of caveman conspiracy theory – like lights in the night sky appearing out of nowhere — or big green lizards who ate people — or that the world was flat and that you would fall off of it into some sort of terror-packed place, somewhere off the cliff of the edge of the world.

    Jesus help us.

    It’s a relief to travel, to get away from all of this for a bit…but you find that this narcissistic monster is the topic of conversation everywhere you go. Everyone is so curious. People away from here have their own opinions and there is no end to the spin.

    And… what can we say? We’re sorry… We’re embarrassed…

    Compare and contrast. It would be good to know how many who voted for him are sorry they did. I’d imagine that when asked if “she whose name is rarely spoken” was running again, she likely said “NO FUCKING WAY.”

    But, it was reported more politely than that “she” would not be running again. Why would she? Who wants to endure that torture? I wouldn’t.

    So many opponents are stepping up on the other side – but, who can beat the monster? That is the question. Will they be able to come together to defeat this horrid man and his reign of terror? If they don’t what will the next 4 years be like?

    Thinking about history, there were despots who ruled for literally decades – and the families of despots who were full of the same stuff from which the despots were made. Take “Kim” for example. There’s a piece of work. And his father before him. Holy Moly! And he is just a kid.

    This is the stuff of science fiction horror fantasies, and yet, you can’t make this shit up. “This is some weird shit!” Saith “W” at the Inauguration that was attended by the exaggerated number of people. Lying pieces of shit is what I say. And yes, weird, thanks for that insight, “W”!

    Ask someone why they support this abomination of a president. The answers are from Fox News. Everyone’s source of predigested opinion… There is a list of “reasons” – probably must have a login to access it.

    Think of it. He is – a veritable cartoon – and not a nice one – who sits in the seat, but resembles no other president – even “Tricky Dick” looks less like a dick than this guy – “Dick” pales by comparison – and he was, at the time, a very upsetting creepy guy who, if not stopped, could have done some unsavory things – geezy-weezy – probably nothing like this. He couldn’t have thought of this. He may have been unstable, but he wasn’t “MENTAL” most of the time. Not like this guy.

    And, Tricky Dick wasn’t able to play “video games” on a whim. And he probably didn’t stay up all night drinking Diet Coke, in his bathrobe, tweeting away. This guy could blow up the planet if given half a chance – or cause it to be blown up… The insight is that most people have now recognized him for what he is and are no longer shocked at what he does. It’s more of an eye rolling exercise these days. You can see it in the eyes of the beholders. They say “Seriously? Just stop now. You’re ridiculous.” At least that’s what they want to say… You can tell.

    It’s like an episode out of the Twilight Zone. Seriously. What was the one where everyone had to be nice to the little boy because if he imagined something horrible happening to someone, it would happen?

    The recent op-ed by James Comey was chilling – his assertion that the behavior of the cabinet members changes in order to survive – or else, they’re out. They either resign or get kicked out by the king of turds. Nobody seems to have the bravery to band together to stop this miserable excuse of a human being – even the party members of the legislature are unable to stand without fear – it’s a truly Adolf situation. When, if they all banded together and said, “enough already”, he couldn’t do a thing to them. Or could he? I keep waiting to hear that somewhere, there are bodies buried. Gangstas.

    Just who supports him now? That’s the question. What is the profile of voters or would-be voters?

    I have a good idea… But, at any rate, it suffices to say that we are going to have to press ourselves into voting with our core values in huge numbers (the reasonable ones) – or else… who knows?

  • What goes around comes around

    What goes around comes around

    Back in the day, when I was young, I thought I was making good decisions. What you don’t realize is that those decisions that you make are lasting. You can’t realize it yourself until you look back. You have to be open to take advice. That’s the problem with being stubborn.

  • Coming On Christmas…

    Coming On Christmas…

    Joni Mitchell had a song called River on her “Blue” album that included that phrase ‘it’s coming on Christmas, we’re cutting down trees, they’re puttin’ up reindeer, singing songs of joy and peace…” with a melancholy appeal “I wish I had a river, that I could skate away on…” – an analogy for getting to a better place – for more happiness. 

    Those were similar, but in certain ways different, times of turbulence.

    We had the Vietnam War still going, and then there was Nixon and all of that weirdness, splitting the country into factions.  

    What we had hoped and prayed would become peace eventually did (sort of) but it took awhile.  And the thing to remember is that it’s not human to have lasting peace. It never has been, no matter how advanced the species evolves, for there to be lasting peace and for everyone to get along.

    This much I do know, and most people probably do know this at some level, as well.

    We have embedded within our DNA that shifting angst.  We have, many of us, that desire for “more” – “more better” “more of” “more this”  “more that” – whatever it is many of us want “more…”  We want “perfect” and we pray to accept within ourselves and others that we can’t be perfect. 

    Because we’re human, we cannot be perfect…

    After those days when Joni wrote and recorded that song, things settled down eventually – for a while, as I said. 

    We had the to’s and fro’s of economic difficulties, wars trying to start, away from here, yet the generations who knew war intimately, were still keeping in place some semblance of civility.  Kind of.  Sort of.  Sometimes, it was as if there was a bit of the “war romantic” trend – but, with the Gulf wars (Middle East), we began to see some different things happening.  Subtle at first, but then as it evolved, we recognized that technology was having a very large impact on our world and on wars.  The generations were changing.  No longer was this “our father’s and our grandfather’s wars”.

    Nonetheless, in Winter we have the time when we reflect – call it what it is – beginning with Thanksgiving and moving through Christmas and New Year’s Day – it is termed by some “The most wonderful time of the year…”  But, then it isn’t always that for everyone.  It’s just a goal, really.  Something put out on media, publicly, for the influence and urging of everyone to “cheer up”.

    Except there are people who can’t cheer up.  Life is grim for them.  There is nothing but misery, loneliness, pain, desperation, despondency, anger, sadness, depression, and the list goes on of the aspects of people’s lives that effectively cannot let them cheer up.  It would be interesting to know just what percentage of the world’s population at any given moment cannot “cheer up”.  Probably, it’s more than 50%.  At least right now.

    We have much in our country, relatively, to be thankful for compared to some, but since many have never been beyond the walls of their places of birth, they wouldn’t know.  You kind of have to get out in order to see how the other people not living here bide, day to day.  The first time you do, it’s a shocker.  It’s far worse than the adverts for the relief foundations.  Far more dismal and unimaginably difficult than people can imaging – because it is not a relatable experience for them.  They may have it “rough”, but they may not know just how “rough” rough can be.  Seriously.

    Christmas and Hanukkah and the holidays around this time of year, tend to mark our calendars with some form of hope – of newborn hope – of hopeful beginnings… Of the beginning of salvation from “this” – whatever “this” is.

    Every year, I get older and wiser – but then, as I get on, I look back and have that weird sensation that what I once thought about certain things, actually needs to be revised…  Let’s say this happens a lot, these days.  It makes me go “oh.  I need to re-think that”.  I’m not so stubborn that I will refuse to change my mind.  Sometimes, changing your mind is a good thing, actually.  It actually feels kind of good, sometimes.  Like a relief of some sort.

    Well, back to the situation at hand.  It’s coming on Christmas…  We take this time of year to “reassess” — to understand where we are going (or not).  We have the situation where, it’s not what we do not have, but more what we have that we should reflect upon. 

    The public focus so much is fear-driven, these days – the awfulizing, the constant reminder of threats and horrors, then the promises for deliverance that is constantly the message…  Sometimes it’s good to just turn off the news.  Get a break.  Red Trees?  So what?  It’s just a weird situation and it’s not our situation.  It’s hers.  Bless her heart.  We’d probably have black trees with gray snow if it was us.  Seriously.

    So, are we progressing towards the cliff?  Or are we just shifting into the next dimension?  Will we ever know? 

    Will we ever rise and look down and see that from a distance all is actually not changed, but merely ebbing and flowing – as we gaze at planets from a distance and see the fluid nature of those who appear to have some changes in some sort of regular but, irregular, patterns?

    For now, we know that there is a good bit of unrest in the world.  As we approach the time when we contemplate the meaning of these holidays – you would like to believe that people will pause and think – you would like to believe that people will stop themselves from going out of control.

    At least you hope for this time of year that we have some peace on Earth and some goodwill within humankind.  Let’s just see how it goes…

    In the meantime, we’re going to put out the reindeer, and sing songs of joy and peace…