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  • life as it goes on, and sometimes it unravels…

    life as it goes on, and sometimes it unravels…

    Here lately, so much has been happening that it is difficult for us to know the extent to which it impacts us – we just have a lot of swirling thoughts and those that remind us of the past, of course, as life has a habit of digging up those and bringing them forward. 

    Our friends’ daughter was killed in an auto accident last week, and swiftly all the events of their lives were set out, on a different path.  Instantly, just like that.  It happens.  These are reminders that we are not in control here.  We only have glimpses that we call control, like my fingers on this keyboard.  Fleeting.

    We hold onto our forward course, but sometimes the course changes – and we are disrupted onto a new course of moving forward, just in a different direction.  Similar events from my past are re-lived in understanding and empathizing with my friends.  We share the road of the common experience.  Our minds adjust, as much as they can – but they are changed minds.  Human experience is that way.

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    She was a beautiful girl, but had challenges throughout her life.  Where she seemed to flourish the most was at the time she had her babies but still she seemed challenged to attain a solid happy spot in her life.  We will miss her and it goes to remind us how people touch our lives, no matter how distant they are, you do get pulled into the relationships once you meet them, watch them grow up, and become young adults…

  • decisions, challenges, keeping focus and still worrying, after all these years

    decisions, challenges, keeping focus and still worrying, after all these years

    personally, i haven't changed a bit...
    personally, i haven’t changed a bit…

    all these years.  yep.  it is a fact, day by day, we never know what comes around the corner.   finding eggs, after hunting for them all over the place… an early adopter.  pastel colored eggs were and still are attractive.   not sure why that is.  early exposure.

    in my life, if I think of it at a certain level of abstraction, there have been puzzles to solve.  always.

    I can also remember bits and pieces of early childhood vividly.  sometimes the smells.  sometimes just the scenes.  sometimes the voices of my grandmother and mother, talking together, drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes, or with my godmothers, always doing some sort of project.

    it was an interesting early life, always something going on – activity – not much sitting around – mostly, inventive, clever, fun.  there was always fun factor.  enjoyment was king.  maybe since it was just a few years after the war ended, they recognized the value of enjoyment and fun factor.

    I grew up around a lot of adults, and kids, sometimes, but mostly, it was adult-oriented – and sometimes alone – left to play by myself, or supposedly napping – sometimes I did nap, but mostly not.

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    A little uncertain of whoever it was taking the picture. Dad was, too?

    I kind of like puzzles.  Hard to solve ones, but satisfying if I do.  The life challenges, however, can begin to wear you down – you need a re-charge and once in awhile – you get it, that, sometimes a new challenge is actually energizing, not draining.  Change of scenery.

    Just when you are greatly comforted, that’s when something happens.  Almost if comfortable is a warning sign.  This is the anthem of the anxious.  Perhaps, I am a bit anxious, but calmly so, if that makes any sense.  To those of you out there who share this, it will make sense.

    IMG_3557but worrying is genetic, I’ve decided.  still haven’t been able to Zen around it… guess I got that from my Dad, he was chief of the worriers – did it for all of us – but, I guess, I take his place in that.  Must surround myself with Zen people.  Chill.  That’s it.  But not easy.